What I want more than anything is to not come home to an empty house, to have laughter in my home that is not my silly lonely laughter, to have a vegetable garden, prepare gourmet meals & comfort food for someone I care about, to ask someone how was their day, to sit around leisurely on Sunday afternoon and read newspapers and watch the political pundits with my partner, I want to have children, well adjusted, black children who are confident in themselves, their heritage, with a Mommy and Daddy in their home. I want to have family barbeques where I just make the sides, no grilling for me. I want date night. I want to make love to my best friend every night. I want to be a part of the best things in someone’s life, put there to help pick up the pieces when the worst happens too. I am not big on keeping up with the Jones. I’d rather a big life. I want a big life. A big life that is filled with simple things, like reminding my partner to call his Dad for Father's Day, leaving him handwritten notes in the lunch I prepare for him to take to the office, catching a concert outdoors with him, throwing surprise parties, sitting beside him in church, listening as his Mother tells me all about his childhood. Simple. Not complicated.
The love story of Toni Morrison's characters, Sixo and the 30 Mile Woman in Beloved makes me certain that I want to be someone's 24, 902-mile woman and I need him to be my 24, 902 mile plus man. :-)